Saturday, September 30, 2006
her addiction
hellos. am using the comp without permittion .
today english exam . quite okay lahs .
went to amk central with songen,siwai,melody and yichao .
met xinru,benson,glande,kaizhong
nurul,james,matthew,sean and other obs ppl
wenqian and stanley
wahs . so many hors .
today i super pms- went home to find out i had my period .
laughs (:
basically spend 79% of my free time in class being there but not there .
i know someppl would understand what i mean .
but seriously !! its like so long .. and im tired- emo and physi
had only one can of nescafe for breakfast til 3 pm .
have my period too, so am very weak . nvr sleep much too .
maybe its taking a toll on me .
and im doing something repeatedly when im feeling not so good .
im sorry to this whole world . really .
and im thankful for the forgiveness from some of my treasured frens (:
i hope it will all blow off .
i promise to start anew .. i try ?
but for now ... come what may, i'll jus bare from it all this bitter, coldblooded winter .
-extract
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt To feel lost
To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
but I'm not gonna be okay
mayuko*
1:15 AM
Monday, September 04, 2006
her addiction
heys . sorry for not posting anything for so long .
but whenever im not online, i wont post my blog. so yahs .
oasis has been usual . last saturday's session,
i threw chunming's keys and phone headset into the bin !!
hahs . btw, tmr have to go for the exam prep thing .
earnest would be giving a talk, i think . yahs .
i've already told the st( superteens) ppl to give our sch's SLs a shot .
on tchers' day, school ended about 9:20am .
i was with nurul, mir, liyan . yeapps .
mr johari treated us with pizza for dinner !!
it was rather rainy that day, my shoes were like soaked ?
there was this tv crew that were shooting mr johari .
because he won the president's prestigious teacher award .
half of 409 were in plus, the UD(ali), nurul, mir, liyan and me .
the reporter interviewed mr jo, ali and nurul .
it was for the suria news .
when mr jo asked nurul to go, james was there
and he keep asking her to allow him to be there ...
diaos right ? but you cant expect anything from a drama guy who loves the stage .
he say he want to be a hollywood star ??? lols .
but the prob is he not tall enough, and honestly,
i've told him a few times already.. yahs .
btw, we went to far east .
jeremy, kenneth lim, siwai, nurul, liyan and me wait for mir to change .
she perform mahs . damn good lehs (:
we play with tuner .. hahs .
den mir and me drink green tea from a unknown bottle .
we both tot it was one of the guys' bottle . hahs .
den saw that toot take taxi come dance ..
followed by su laoshi .. greeted cher .
by the end of the day, su laoshi and the toot take taxi home ..
so qiao they neighbors hors ? lols .
i'll be going to bangkok for the 3rd time on this thurs .
hahs . it'll be another of my dad's company paying .
something like family day ? yups .
wed have dance . 9 to 3.30pm/
sians . this few days would be like really busy .
tues- 9 to 11-- tuition
1.30 to 4.30-- oasis (bugis)
wed- dance
thurs- morn--buhbye s'pore~~
sun- evening-- home swt home !!
hope this trip would be sucessful !! must but alot alot things .
have got wishlists from nurul, hweeen, zhuxi, my sis !! and mine!!
stress arhs .. lols .
sighing off !!
9:32 PM
